this is my first post from my new macbook air. i bought it refurbished from the apple site to save money. i told my friends that i would write more if i had a machine i actually liked to work on. so here i am.
i must say, I've been less than thrilled to write since the last post. last year. more bluntly, i haven't given a fuck. i haven't wanted to put my thoughts and feelings into writing, digitally or on paper. so my journal's last written entry dates from January 2012 when i moved out of the atkinson house where i lived with kyle, and moved back into the 4 bedroom 'brothel' on sunset lane, with three other girls.
i gained all the weight back that i lost in arkansas, like i knew i would if i moved in with girls that ate like normal girls do. its hard to keep it in perspective, that i don't look like a dachau refugee like catherine's father said i resembled when he saw me fall 2010. its weird to think so many people in my life have no idea what I'm talking about, either. they didn't see me looking that way, they didn't see me that august when i got back from arkansas, and this is the first time I'm writing about it openly.
well there ya go. its the thing that weighs most heavily on my mind, since, i dont know, forever. all things aside, if I'm not happy with my weight, then I'm not happy period. and I'm not happy with my weight.
this will be my last semester as a college student. incidentally, this is also the first time I've ever brought my laptop to a class. BECAUSE I HAVE A MACBOOK NOW BOOYAH. okay enough with the hubris. i haven't earned it yet. when I'm a professional blogger ill brag. until then, though, ill demurely say that no one will read this. except you, mom, and pablo and minna and a few others maybe, if i start hash-tagging things i buy, in hopes of getting free swag in the mail to continue the advertisement. everything aside, we are about to discuss irish literature in my Irish Literature class.
